Oh November, from here on in be kind.

I told myself that I would honestly try to never write one of these 'oh woeisme' journal entries but honestly I just want to write it down some where that isn't some piece of paper I'll throw out or some dumb word document that'll sit on my desktop.

I pretty just feel like every single part of my life down to the littlest facet is crumbling or just out right crashing down around me and I have no little bit of a happy place where I can hide out cause there's some stupid shit that comes up from that to make me miserable. I'm terribly stressed and have been horrendously sick, and it's all making me recover unbelievably slowly.

I can pretty much burst into sobs at thinking for a moment too long about any one part of it and it's getting to the point where I question every single thing and can no longer feel positively about anything and just feel so worthless at everything.
Thing is I think I've gotten to the point where I'm so damn sick of giving a rat's ass about it all that all that misery is just turning to bitterness and a whole lot of dangerous feelings.

I don't know what to do or how to feel really when I'm not in tears over it all anymore but I can't help but feel I'm moving towards a precipice of some sort, cause I kind of came to the beginning of a breaking point today. I'm just really sick of feeling like shit.
Sorry if that's really whiny and woeisme-ish but well, I didn't make you read this far. If you did and aren't rolling your eyes at me right now, lotsa love.

-Nick

It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I waaaant too!

Only, luckily I don't really want to cry or have any particular reason to. Though saying that is just asking for bad luck or something *knocks on wood, for real*

So! My room-mates (~terru and ~boycey10802002) set up an awesome little scavenger hunt for me for my birthday, and so now I have lots of candies from that aaaand I bought myself fudge as my own gift to me today. Sooo much sugar! *eating fudge right now* Today however I did realize one very important thing about myself. I am terrible at riddles XD, I only got the last one with help from another friend.

I got lots of lovely birthday wishes today too, it was very nice and I got to the studio this morning to find ~jennygreenteeth had put a note on my desk with a jar of flowers with it. It was a very nice way to start the day. Lots of love to all of them. It was all sweet so I thought I'd make it known here.

-Nick

School starts tuesday!!! Aaaaaaah *hides under couch*

...No one will find me here.

Oh and obviously I'm back from that week I was gone, have been for a bit and forgot to edit this. Thanks to the people who gave me the nice parting wishes.

So school is waaay too soon, and the only question I find I'm asking myself is... why have you procrastinated so much!? And yet I'm doing it right now still, making a journal entry instead of animating!
Ugh... I don't want to go back yet. To the chaos which will be third year.

Anyhow yeah... gotta get my butt to work now, but wanted to inform, that commissions are now closed. I won't be taking any until maaaybe Christmas but probably just next summer. Unless you're a good friend and a good convincer on top of that.

Lotsa love, I must go animate or work on redoing a leica reel.

-Nick